Seriously, dont read this if you dont wanna. This is the worst night for me, this year at least, get it? it been 07 for what, 2 days? And this tonight, HAS BEEN THE WORST! My friends attempted suicide, and whats fucking worse is i told her too, im SICK OF TYRING TO GET MY POINT ACROSS, SHE WOULDNT LISTEN, SO WHATD I DO, TELL HER TO 'FINE, GO DO IT, BYE', IM SO STUPID, SHE WAS MENTALLY FRAGILE, AND I GO DO THAT! I HATE WHO I AM, WHO AM I? I CAN SAY FOR SURE IM A SICK, PHYSCOTIC, IDIOTIC, PATHETIC, UGLY, FAT, STUPID LITTLE 'MISTAKE' WHO SHOULD GO RUN A BLADE DOWN HER WRIST, AND BLEED, TO DEATH, OR TO HANG HERSELF AND HANG THEIR, IN PAIN, OR.. TOO OVERDOSE, AND TO LIE IN PAIN, TO DIE SLOWLY AND PAINFULLY, IM EVEN TO SCUM FOR DEATH, IM A STUPID PATHETIC 'THING' WHO SHOULD DIE. YOU KNOW WHAT VOICES, FINE, I WILL, IF THATLL MAKE YOU HAPPY, AND YOU PEOPLE,EVERYONE ON SF, IF ITLL MAKE YOU HAPPY THAT ILL BE DEAD WITHIN THE NEXT FEW HOURS, THEN FINE! I WILL. I WANT TO MAKE OTHERS HAPPY, NOT MAKE THEM WANNA DIE, OR BE MEAN, IM A LONER, NO FRIENDS AT ALL, IM NOT A FRIEND, IM A THING, IM NOT ALLOWED TO BE CALLED A FRIEND, BECAUSE IM NOT ONE! OOoohh, im sorry for this, but im so fucked up, im so .. grr, this is some fucked up shit here. sorry for lauguage, but i swear, if its the last thing i do, which it will be, i WILL kill myself today, I WILL!