Hi there, this is my first post. Sorry for my bad english as I'm not a native english speaker. Well.. I just want to say things wandering around in my head right now, hope nobody minds. I'm really tired right now. I really want to just end my life and be free from this miserable life. My life has become a boring story. I don't feel like I have anyone I can count on. I don't have anyone that I can worth living for.. I don't really know why my life has come to this point. I just don't. It happens just like that. Of course, deep down inside I know I'm afraid to die. I still wanna live. But I wanna live happily. I don't want to continue with this kind of life that I'm having right now. It's too miserable, too many sad stories, too many failures, too many complaints, too many despairs. I can't hold on any longer, I really want to end it here right now. But.. I just can't.. I don't know how to end my life painlessly. I guess there's no way to end one's life easily and without pain. I'm depressed almost every night. Before going to bed, I always ask me this question: "Are you happy today?" Most of my answers are "I'm not". Life seems boring. Life seems not worth doing anymore. I don't have anyone, I don't have anything, I'm nobody and Nobody really loves me. Not even my parents, my friends. I want to end it here but I don't know how.