I'm tired of smiling, and appearing to be happy..

[miserylovesco]

..just to please others. I've tried to keep myself content, tried to keep from getting so utterly depressed that I can't bear to get out of bed in the morning. But when I think about these last few years, I can't seem to recall a time when I felt truly happy.

Why do I let the little things get to me? I know I shouldn't let them get to me.. but they do. I try my best to be polite to others, smile so I appear friendly and approachable to others so if ever they need any help, they won't be afraid to ask. But most times I feel invisible.. ignored, and feel as though I'm being judged on first appearances.

My main concern shouldn't be to please others. I need to try to be happy with who I am, have confidence in myself. Not take everything so personally. It's all easier said than done.

 

[danni]

hun i know what you mean trying to be happy everyday. cause that the way i'm, but if you keep everything inside its gonna hurt more inside hun. I'm here if you wanna talk :hug:

 

[funktionsleiche]

It is just a guess of me and i compare your situation with mine...

Is it possible that you are really sensitive and gentle as far as other ppls are concerned?
You want everybody ele to be happy and you are doing very much for that.

Perhaps, you unlearned, over the years in which you ignored and hided your own feelings and moods to be happy while you learned to function?

My main concern shouldn't be to please others. I need to try to be happy with who I am, have confidence in myself. Not take everything so personally. It's all easier said than done.

Course, it will take a time to relearn to show your feelings and to get a way to them.
Are you taking steps in this direction?

Perhaps it could help you to talk (in real life or virtuel) about your feelings and the things which concern you?
Perhaps it would be helpful to consulate an therapist?

Have you ever thought of practising material arts? In some way that helped me to regain a little bit of confidence back... it is not yet that much, but it is working...




(i am sorry for any mistake in spelling or grammar, but i hope that that what i wanted to say netherthelss is understandable... )