No one has ever loved me except for my family. And now the only member of my family I have left is losing their love in me, Living without knowing anyone gives a crap about you is bad enough, but when you have to live with that AND having family hate you is just unbearable. The thought of the only person to have ever given you affection in your entire life hating you is depressing. The more i try to reasonably resolve things the more I get hated. If they want things to get better, why do they keep fighting with me? If I just sit there and take it, and not fight for whats right, then I just get so depressed, I don't have a car, Anxiety keeps me from having a job, Education is shit. No friends. No stability. I miss myself. I miss who I was, I miss the way things were. People say things get better, but how damn long am I going to have to wait, things get worse by the day and each day I feel worse.