Maybe people will judge me because of the title, but I just have to be open to what am I thinking. I need to rant.
I feel tired. I feel tired of seeing people that I can't have. Anywhere I go I see girls that I could be with, but the feeling of emptiness, the feeling that those girls probably don't even think about me, and if they think, they just decide that I am not worth the risk is very depressing.
I wish I could just close my eyes and forget.
All the love I felt for any girl in the past unfulfilled just makes me sad about ever loving someone in the future.
Everyone that can like me seems to only remind me of people who didn't like me. Girls who don't even notice me.
Maybe the problem is that I never felt "desired". But maybe I've been desired before, but if a girl didn't have the will to just try to call my attention, what does it matter?
Why should I try to go and find someone, if it always feels like a transaction where I have to offer something first?
Why I have to wait for some special girl, if the average girl just doesn't even notice me.
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I feel tired. I feel tired of seeing people that I can't have. Anywhere I go I see girls that I could be with, but the feeling of emptiness, the feeling that those girls probably don't even think about me, and if they think, they just decide that I am not worth the risk is very depressing.
I wish I could just close my eyes and forget.
All the love I felt for any girl in the past unfulfilled just makes me sad about ever loving someone in the future.
Everyone that can like me seems to only remind me of people who didn't like me. Girls who don't even notice me.
Maybe the problem is that I never felt "desired". But maybe I've been desired before, but if a girl didn't have the will to just try to call my attention, what does it matter?
Why should I try to go and find someone, if it always feels like a transaction where I have to offer something first?
Why I have to wait for some special girl, if the average girl just doesn't even notice me.
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