I'm tired of feeling tired.
I'm tired of thinking how my life could have been different.
I'm tired of being reminded of how pathetic I am
I'm tired of crying because I was raped
I'm tired of crying because they told me it was my fault
I'm tired of hearing that I lost God's protection when I drank the beer... and the roofie.
I'm tired of standing under my porch with a jump rope, ready to let my body sway with the breeze
I'm tired of hearing what a failure I am
I'm tired of these pills
I'm tired of hearing about how you want to die. You cheated on my mom, she gave you a chance, and you said you didn't want her. Shut your fucking mouth.
I'm tired of saying yes to every guy that wants to fuck, but I'm afraid to say no because it might happen again...
I'm tired of sleeping, because it's easier than being awake.
I'm tired of thinking of reasons to live... and drawing a blank
I'm tired of making others laugh and putting on a smile... fake but convincing
But why am I always too chicken shit to end it myself...
I'm tired of thinking how my life could have been different.
I'm tired of being reminded of how pathetic I am
I'm tired of crying because I was raped
I'm tired of crying because they told me it was my fault
I'm tired of hearing that I lost God's protection when I drank the beer... and the roofie.
I'm tired of standing under my porch with a jump rope, ready to let my body sway with the breeze
I'm tired of hearing what a failure I am
I'm tired of these pills
I'm tired of hearing about how you want to die. You cheated on my mom, she gave you a chance, and you said you didn't want her. Shut your fucking mouth.
I'm tired of saying yes to every guy that wants to fuck, but I'm afraid to say no because it might happen again...
I'm tired of sleeping, because it's easier than being awake.
I'm tired of thinking of reasons to live... and drawing a blank
I'm tired of making others laugh and putting on a smile... fake but convincing
But why am I always too chicken shit to end it myself...