I feel lonely and I'm tired. I've spent the afternoon on phone with a crisis line and well, it still there. I had a short relationship that went bad, 8 months ago and still, I can't move on. I still have feelings and still have nightmares where the loved one laugh in my face. I really do have the feeling I'll be alone all my life. And that's unbearable. I just... don' t want to be alone all my life but that's where I' m going. I work in a call center since twelve years. I just can't stand having custumers yell at me. I've been yelled at all my life. I got a degree and I work hard to get a job in my field but no one is calling me back after I send CV. I've called the welfare to get help to find a job in my field since it's the third burnout I've done... they refuse to help me because... I got a job. If I quit, I won't have any help neither. I don' t have many friends and my family and I don't talk. I don' t know what to do. I just want to stop all that. I'm too chicken to take the pills and too chicken to slit my wrists but I feel stucked.