I'm currently in Japan. In two months exactly I'm going home. I don't want to go back because I don't want to stay. I don't want to stay because I don't feel like I belong here. I wasn't able to meet people that make me feel like I'm glad to have been there. I feel alone, there's no one with the same interests or way of thinking as me. Plus it's a dead end for my futur here, I don't have a choice but to go back. But I'm afraid. Because I've been walking in circles for almost two years now. When I'll come back after six months things will have changed. When I talk to my friends, I hear them speak about their lifes, they're all doing the studies they want, working hard, moving and accomplishing dreams and stuffs. While I'm back to square one. Again. They're too far ahead of me. I always felt like I couldn't reach them, now I also feel left behind. I know I'll feel out of place when I go back home. There's no place for me there anymore. I'm not even sure there was one to begin with.