I feel like this because my life is so crap! All my life I have had crap and health problems and financial problems, relationship problems......and the list goes on. I am 57 this year and exhausted from fighting my way through every day. I am alone with all of this, when push comes to shove no one cares do they? Not really, let's face it! Anyway when things go wrong we should be kind to ourselves, even kinder than normal but I hate myself even more. I have no idea why I was given a life which is difficult to face. I was made redundant 4 times. I was married twice a long time ago and both husbands after just a year wanted a divorce. My so called friends have gone and left a long time ago. So let's recap: no future, no job, last holiday was about 30 years ago, financial problems, stuck indoors mostly unless its to the supermarket, breathing problems through smoking ciggies (gave up nearly 5 years ago), back problems due to scoliosis, ugly teeth as I can't go to the dentist, still got acne which I've had for 30+ years. Then I switch the tv on and I see a little child whose bones are sticking out and she can't breath properly and she's dying and I feel guilty for feeling this way. But I'm so done and so tired.