i continue to make posts here, i know, and i know that few people will comment. i read every bit of encouragement with dead eyes and its hard to believe its true. the only thing stopping me is that there is nothing to kill myself with. i just cant do this, i dont want this, i hate life and i cant do it anymore. i dont want to live anymore. im trying because my girlfriend needs me and thats what stopped her from killing herself last night but i just cant do this. i need help and im already getting it.