well it ALL started in grade school...
I think i was 11... ish, where i kinda had a realization that my life was pretty boring ...and because i was silent everyone thought i was stupid,that made me kinda depressed, but i had a few friends, and I'm sure that if i told them i was feeling down they would try to cheer me up... but I had this faith that, things where gonna get better, and i didn't like bringing people down... and that faith kept me going till I reached about 13, grade school, final year... where i realized that nothing had gotten better... it was all the same, maybe worse.
at the end of the year i realized how little of an impact grade school had on me, most of the friends i had i would barely miss... during graduation i seen friends saying there final goodbyes, and many people crying... this made me realize in all the 8 years i was in grade school, nothing happened... seeing how much others where impacted made me feel like i waisted 8 years of my life... i was pretty depressed
that depression led me to high school where once again, i believed things would get better. a year passed, almost done the second they didn't...
they got much worse. i display myself as a happy person now, and i treat it as this inside joke that i suffer a deep depression... I'm kinda angry, very confused, but mostly depressed. i think it's fair to say I've gotten past depression and am going towards insanity... help me... please
I think i was 11... ish, where i kinda had a realization that my life was pretty boring ...and because i was silent everyone thought i was stupid,that made me kinda depressed, but i had a few friends, and I'm sure that if i told them i was feeling down they would try to cheer me up... but I had this faith that, things where gonna get better, and i didn't like bringing people down... and that faith kept me going till I reached about 13, grade school, final year... where i realized that nothing had gotten better... it was all the same, maybe worse.
at the end of the year i realized how little of an impact grade school had on me, most of the friends i had i would barely miss... during graduation i seen friends saying there final goodbyes, and many people crying... this made me realize in all the 8 years i was in grade school, nothing happened... seeing how much others where impacted made me feel like i waisted 8 years of my life... i was pretty depressed
that depression led me to high school where once again, i believed things would get better. a year passed, almost done the second they didn't...
they got much worse. i display myself as a happy person now, and i treat it as this inside joke that i suffer a deep depression... I'm kinda angry, very confused, but mostly depressed. i think it's fair to say I've gotten past depression and am going towards insanity... help me... please