Sometimes, taking of one's life isn't necessarily a bad thing. Sometimes, the hurt goes too deep that nothing, no pill, no amount of therapy will take the pain away. There's pain associated with the death of a loved one anyway, be it natural, accidental or otherwise. The living always see it as a loss... others see it as a release. When someone is physically, terminally ill, some beg for release as a way to end the pain. Why is that different from emotional pain? I"m just about at the point where I'm ready to take my last steps. I have my plan in place. The only thing that's keeping me breathing is my best friend and even he's pulling away from me lately so it won't be long. I'm just so tired of this dance called society. I never got the hang of any of it and I'm tired of trying. I've lost so many friends in the past few years because of the tragedies that have happened to me. My whole family is gone, I have no one IRL except my best friend. Once he's left me, I'm gone too. I've felt close to this in the past and when I expressed how I felt (that I wanted to die), I was treated with disgust. I've gone through hell the past 10 years and I've had enough. The people that know me tell me that I'm strong enough to overcome all this but I have my doubts. I've been getting more and more depressed over the past few years and it never 'gets better'. The frequency, duration and depth keep on getting worse. I'm just tired and want to rest.