I am having those images of slicing myself to the bone again because this pain is so deep. I'm not talking about SI! I'm talking so I can bleed all this pain away along with my life. I want this pain out of me. It is too strong. So I'm to a point in my journal that I've let a lot of things out but now I am starting to write about some of the most painful parts. Dammit!!! I didn't get very far into the entry before I had to stop. Oh this pain. Even though I don't ever wanna see him again the very thought of his words hurts to the core and makes me feel so worthless that the only way to end this pain would be to die. I'm never be worth a damn to anyone. Edit: Just expressing. Don't panic anybody.