Sometimes I feel my suicidal thoughts are also caused by a sort of impatience. And it feels horrible not knowing when I'm going to die. I feel as though I want to just skip to the end and see what happens so I can get out of here. I really want to just see if there is anything after this life. The way things are going now are depressing and I just want to get everything over with. Is it ok to postpone suicide for a few years? I am currently 19 but I want to give things until age 26 to improve. Please give me some advice for these issues if you can.