My bdd is getting worse and is totally out of control at the moment. It has sucked everything away from me that ever meant anything to me...and all I am left with is an ugly and monstrous face. My facial rituals have become my torture and are all consuming. I cannot separate the emotions. No matter how hard I try, it always comes out distorted or over the top and I cannot take it anymore. I cannot stand to live, if I am always going to have this problem. It has ruined me. I cannot stand to live.