Hi Everyone. Without going into too much detail i find myself in an impossible position. no work, no home (soon), no car, no licence, debt, bailiffs and a broken relationship. Im normally a fighter and ive been in similar positions before but a long time ago. Im too old for this and sometimes just dont see the point. I have no real control over anything and if you ask me a question, the answer is "i dont know" Sometimes i just feel like dying would be an end to the pain, which is constant. I dont blame myself entirely for the position im in. Its just a series of bad choices over a five year period but i hav eto take some responsibility, however, i have had a lot of help to get here. Not sure what im sying but i do keep hearing myself say " whats the point, the mountain is just too high"