I cut myself last night, it was the first SH I've done in months. It's always the same way. You think that will be your last and as the months go past you believe it. But then something happens and you get the urge or you can't control the pain so you have to cut yourself to feel better. I truely believe I won't ever be able to stop. But I don't really care, there's nothing wrong with SH and people who do it should not feel shunned or embarrassed for it. All people have different coping mechanism, some drink, some run, some smoke and some SH. I wish people would realise that. If it's not life threatening, then let it be. It's a personal thing!