I have just cancelled DBT for the 3rd time, I phoned them and told them to cross me off the DBT program because I cannot get in and out to the city when they want me to. (I live in a small village with a poor bus service), told them to leave me alone. Quitting this even before it starts just like I quit college twice. It's just an excuse, I could find a way in and out if I really needed to. I am throwing my life down the toilet. I am very indecisive, very impulsive and shouldn't be allowed to make decisions for myself. What the hell is wrong with me? I am behaving like a toddler and I need to grow up and get some sense but I was not first in the queue when they were handing out the brains unfortunately I mess everything up. I ashamed of who I am. An embarrassment to my family and most of all to myself. I am selfish, greedy and I won't insult pigs by calling me a pig.