ARG.. I just.. I want to DIE! I can't do this right now!! I'm in a lot of pain because of this freakin period and I had to take the damn morning after pill last week cuz this freakin GUY was a JERK.. And then I impulsively ODed Friday and I didn't go to ER cuz I am totally PARANOID of them!!!! GOD! The freakin ER's Think I'm a fuckin LIER! Last time I went they told me I was lieing about having PTSD and told me dad I lied to him! I don't fuckin get it! I guess after 5 fuckin years of attempts and shit they really dont give a fuck! I kinda just want to kill myself some way they can see me die on the table! FUCK! Then maybe then they can be happy!
This fuckin pain I have right now is on a scale only 1 number below when I have my apendix removed.. I generally dont have periods at ALL!! So when I do for one, the pain is BAD! And then the morning after pill is like.. same drugs as birth control only higer dose. And I dont take the fuckin birth control because it causes me severe migraines and makes me suicidal!
UGH! I think this may just be the fuckin begining of it! I also am not sure but this morning I got off the computer to lay down and was talking to someone on my phone MSN. And I freakin passed out or dozed off somehow.. I don't know!! I'm not sure how much more I can take and I can't go to fuckin ER because they hate me and I can't handle it there!!
I just want to fucking DIE!!! And I'm sick of this pain! And I'm trying not to fuckin complain cuz its all my won damn fault but what the hell...
I'm sorry for all the fuckin cussing.. UGH
This fuckin pain I have right now is on a scale only 1 number below when I have my apendix removed.. I generally dont have periods at ALL!! So when I do for one, the pain is BAD! And then the morning after pill is like.. same drugs as birth control only higer dose. And I dont take the fuckin birth control because it causes me severe migraines and makes me suicidal!
UGH! I think this may just be the fuckin begining of it! I also am not sure but this morning I got off the computer to lay down and was talking to someone on my phone MSN. And I freakin passed out or dozed off somehow.. I don't know!! I'm not sure how much more I can take and I can't go to fuckin ER because they hate me and I can't handle it there!!
I just want to fucking DIE!!! And I'm sick of this pain! And I'm trying not to fuckin complain cuz its all my won damn fault but what the hell...
I'm sorry for all the fuckin cussing.. UGH