I just came out of the hospital after checking myself in for a psychiatric evaluation. As odd as this might sound usually after this sort of thing I feel a little better about myself, like I am making some sort of acknowledgement of my faults and taken the steps to get better. But this time around I feel completely miserable. I don’t see any possible chance of recovery, not after what I have gone through. Medication, therapy, positive thinking have all failed me and I am just so tired of trying. I gave up trying to leave a “normal life” years ago and instead tried to focus on finding some sort of comfort, some form of happiness, but I see now that even that was just a pipe dream. I am alone and I am miserable and I just can’t take feeling like this anymore.