I dont rly know why I'm posting this, maybe it's cus' I wanna share what I'm soon going to do. I mean, I rly can't go tell a friend, that would be dumb and stupid of me. My life is a complete mess, and if I dont get this over I will be homeless. yea thats for sure. I rather die than be homeless. But thats not the hole reason why I have to do this. Oh, god im drunk and my english lacks big time ;P Oh well.. I came up with this idea off the finall solution to end my life. And no, this is not my first time trying. Last time I slit my wrists with a razorblade. I had blood all over the apartment, damn that was real messy. That was 4 years from now. This time I will try something different, oh hmm I did try this 2 years ago tho, but I failed cus the snare didn't hold. Hehe thats kinda ironic. WEll, this time I will be completly smashed with alcohol and I will feed myself with all these sleeping pills and this time the snare wont break. This time I will not fail. well, thats my lovely story. Some part of me feels ashamed of posting this crap on this forum. Well, i dont care. I just wanted to share my feelings tho I might not post here anymore. You ppl take care now. Hug.