had been really depressed on and off, but now the polar opposite. I don't like the term "bipolar". I think it's too neutral. Makes me think of a magnet.:laugh: Whereas "manic depressive" describes it perfectly for me. Either out of my mind 'manic' or deep in a pit 'depressed'. I haven't been able to concentrate on anything for very long today. Can't sit still. Trying to watch a Star Trek episode, one of my favorites, but can't watch more than five minutes at a time! AARRRGGGHHH!!!!!!! I don't know which is worse, manic or depressive. 'Depressive' is so empty, so hopeless, so tired:sad:, but 'manic' is spinning like a possessed top!:blink: Why can't I attain and maintain the middle ground?:unsure: The only good thing about mania over depression is that I get more housework done!:smile: But I"d gladly let the house stay a bit more cluttered if I could only feel at peace. I'm taking risperdal for the m/d but sometimes it just laughs at the meds goes on a stampede! Please God just let me be calm without being comatose!