Whereas I haven't actually tried to pull the plug, I go into phases where I really want to. I get very demotivated to do anything, and since I work for myself from home, I end up doing nothing other than watching TV and surfing the net, as I'm doing now. I can't concentrate on anything. Then the next day I think that I'm ahead being alive cause I have nothing to lose now, and I'm more at peace and actually not depressed then. I get back to work. No where at the level I used to work before the depression began, but I do get some stuff done. Then some event happens and I'm hurting again. The cycle repeats. Any of you experience something like this?