Why is it so inviting? so tempting? again and again...There are so many reasons why i can't, how ive convinced myself before so why do they just not seem to matter anymore. What a horrible person I am..why cant i live for the sakes of others? I'm trying i really am but something tells me im really not safe at all right now. Funny this, how i always end up with no one to turn to really. People try to tell me i'm a good person, how can i believe that...oh i give up on this post really whats the point, what can anyone say. anyway, just in case..goodbye.