Hi folks, I done something stupid and having aniexty attacks over my paranoia. I try to get help from other organisations and have no where else to turn to. I try to put a braveface but always hit a low ebb. I think I just panicking over nothing but cannot take my life anymore. I hate what I have done and keep thinking about self-harming at the moment. On the outside I keep false smile but inside I crying out for help. I cannot go to my doctor as I don't trust her. Any words or advice would be appreciated. Please as I am very desperate. Thank you for reading.