Hi, I am new to the forum and seen a few threads. Feel so rubbish that I'm not in a position to offer much support or advice to everyone here... So consumed with thoughts of suicide and depression. Convinced that I'm beyond help.. Yesterday went out for a walk, at one point was going to run away, go missing until I had a solid plan to end it all. Yet if I am found in a public area, someone might call for an ambulance if I had taken an overdose.. Then that would set off a chain of events which would probably make my situation worse, i.e. being in hospital after a failed attempt. Today I yet to get out of bed, feeling a failure to my family and friends. Trying hard to stay safe so hiding in my room. How did it get so low? Despite the love and support of my husband, I still feel like this :-( Many people have worse problems or situations, yet are coping or are able to get on with life. My life has fallen apart, I cannot function with no will to live. I've tried talking to ppl about it, but whatever I do makes little difference. I'm breaking down.