I am very suicidal. But i cant come out and say i have a plan and everything is all ago. I spoke with my counselor and she said she is not worried because she doesnt think i would do anything. I havent been able to tell my therapist or my dr. I am afraid to come outright and say it. But i dont want to be here anymore. Im hopeless, worthless, helpless, trapped, empty and angry. My thoughts are all over and racing. I wonder sometimes if im making sense. My moods swing faster than i can realize. I cant live like this. Im not wort the air i breathe. Im a cutter. Im also getting afraid because im cutting deeper. I dont know what to do. I cant think streight. But i need something. I cant stay like this.