After 2 attempts in the last 8 months and starting therapy... I cannot shake this feeling that the only reason I didn't try (and succeed) a third time is because of other people. I have the feeling I'm forced to stay alive, not because I have loads of reasons to live (because i don't), but because people around me don't want to let me go. And now I'm just here because of other people, eventhough I'm really f*cking tired.. Can someone help me deal with this? Maybe help me to start living for myself again?