I almost killed myself last night but I have a family and a few friends. And I thought of them. I wouldn't kill myself and leave them by themselves. It's not fair for them. It's selfish to go and leave because you want to end your suffering. So instead of putting a knife on my throat (sorry for the morbidity), I just decided that a few scars won't be so bad. I cut again using tweezers!! It's ridiculous but the cuts must have been so deep, I almost bled. And the only thing that made me regret in doing it was this physical pain every time I take a shower or wash my skin.