I'm so lonely. I need love. I yearn for someone just to love me, to think about me, to just want me. This is so lame. I can't believe I want this so bad. I lie in bed at night and cry my eyes out because I don't have love. I used to tell myself that love was for fools, that I was above all of this, but now here I am crying my eyes out. I can't believe how lonely I am. How desperate I am. It always seems like so little to want, but it's so big. People are closed. They only share that with a very select few. I'll never belong to any select few. I'm just so fucking lonely. I would never admit this in real life. I don't want to be that gushy lonely person in love with love. I try to convince myself that my suicidal thoughts stem from deeper issues, but I think the ultimate truth is, i'm just so very fucking lonely. I think we all are, we're just too proud to admit it. Admit that something so foolish can rule us so completely. I don't know how to deal with this anymore. Hide what I want. Distract with stupid pointless hobbies. Hope that time will pass quickly enough that love will just be another chore I forgot to take care of...I only wish. I'm trapped inside this neverending emotional nightmare and there aren't any pills to solve it. I don't know what to do anymore. God help me.