Hello, I'm kind of new to this, by which I mean discussing the feelings ance thoughts. So please be patient with me, as I am a little uncertain. I have been a long term sufferer of depression, since the age of about 13 (when I became aware,but the feelings began years before that) I am now 22. It may not sound like a long time, but over those 9 years, the feeling of despair has greatened, to what I feel now. I have been having extreme urges where nothing can remove the ideas in my head. I have struggled for too long, and as each day goes on the thoughts increase, the urges stronger. In my head I have everything planned and organised, what i have to do first. What i need to prepare , I shall apologise now, I do not wish to offend anyone. I have a daughter and I am in an unloving relationship, which is all adding to my feelings. I fear leaving my partner, due to previousabusive relationship. I feel trapped and the suicidal urges are worsening. Locally I have no one for support and no one to go to.