im just wondering if there is anyone here who has any idea of what might be wrong with me ? I know most people dont want a "label" but i really do want to know because maybe if i have a "label" then i can find a treatment that will work. Ive been treated for depression for 13 years now and ive tried quite a few different antidepressants of different types and they have all worked for a few months and then i get a really bad bout of depression only made better by moving to a diff med. My doctor has never offered to refer me for any other treatment or to a psychiatrist and when i see him he just looks at me as if im making it all up when i tell him about my sleeping he always says that the sleeping is the last thing to go in depression. I go from not being able to sleep to being exhausted even after a full nights sleep. i have panic attacks reoccuring nightmares and i really hate going out. I like to have things tidy because if i dont it really really bothers me to the point where i could cry. I cant handle any kind of stress at all and at my low points ive seriously contemplated suicide but i could never do it because i couldnt leave my children. I dont think i have bipolar because i dont have any manic episodes i just go from anxious and agitated to deeply depressed. I really need some advice because at the moment im doing the bare minimum just to get by each day and i still cant keep up. If it wasnt for my husband i would be in an even bigger mess. I dont really wanna go in to major detail about the past but if it helps any i grew up in foster care with not very nice people. Am currently on 210mg of imipramine and beta blockers for the panic attacks. I take my tablets regularly and dont miss any doses Thanks for reading any advice would be appreciated.