When my husband killed himself, he totally had wiped me out financially behind my back, ran the credit cards up, left me no insurance. I paid his mess off and I am left with nothing. By the time I pay all the bills I have no money left for food or gas. I am feeling extremely suicidal today. I've fought as long and as hard as I can. I've tried every avenue to pull myself out of this and because of the economy, etc. I can't get out of this hole. I tried my very best and my best is not good enough in this financial and political climate. I'm tired. I just want to go to sleep forever and never wake up. I can't keep going on like this. I have no one that cares enough to help me. I just want to go. I can't take another year of this.