I am in so much pain. I'm tired of seeing everyone else live their perfect lives, while all I get is tragedy, pain, burden, poverty and hardship. I have no friends. I am burdened by everyone. I just want it all to stop. If I had the guts or the means. I'd end it today. To show how pathetic I am, I can't even afford a gun or pills and I'd be too afraid to try anyway. What a loser I am.