It really amazes me how complex feelings can be. I can be having a fairly decent day, nothing bad happening, and appear to be ok.. when in the back of my mind I am constantly thinking about suicide. I don't get how that works. I know there's something wrong with my brain to make that happen. I just don't know how to deal with it/react to it. If this makes any sense, does anyone else ever feel this way? Probably not, since it's a really strange thing.