I think I've finally hit my breaking point. I can't do this anymore, I'm just in so much pain right now.....Idk what to do with myself. I fucked things up like always, but this time even bigger then usual. In the process I feel as though I've lost the only friend I truly had. And now I have nobody. I just can't take it anymore, I feel like just jumping out of my fucking window right now. I try so hard for people, but no one ever appreciates it. I could probably die right now and no one would even notice, much less care. In my heart, I know this is something I have to do....I have no other choice. This is for the best. At least I'll be in a better place, maybe I can finally be happy.