In my case, it varies, but right now it doesn't include the typical feelings of low self-esteem, bitter hopelessness, and thoughts about how I'm going to end it. It's the pervasive feelings of loneliness, solemnity, drained emotions, and distractability. I am having racing thoughts at times, not of death, but remembrance of the moments past, in which I actually felt mentally alive. I am having trouble planning for the future and staying fully awake. There is a sense of urgency on my part to evade and eventually get rid of these feelings. Unfortunately, or maybe fortunately, I don't know what lies ahead. Maybe if we share, we'll see the various forms of depression, and those who find that they are suffering in a different way than others can provide assistance.