Hey everyone, some of you seen me around, and lately I been going through a internal struggle more frequently, as in I don't know who I am... I don't feel like I belong in this corrupt world. I don't want to kill myself, though sometimes that would just be easer. I just see this world and alot of the people in it as corrupt, I feel tainted by this corruption. I hate thinking corrupted thoughts, I shun myself because I think of them. I can't love anyone, I cant, I want to, but I just cant, it's really hard to explain. Logically I have friends, and logically they love me, in my head it feels like I have no friends. I really don't care if I just stooped talking to all my "friends" and family, I hate being unable to love someone. I hate it. I hate myself so much. I don't know what I hate because I don't know who I am or what to believe in, I feel unconnected in this world, I really do. It feels like I have not connected with anyone, you guys say I feel like you too, but I still feel alone. I am getting help, no one knows what to do, NO ONE KNOWS WHAT TO DO! DO YOU SEE THIS???? NO ONE KNOWS WHAT TO DO! NO ONE! I can't be helped, guys I have a question that needs to be answered, and I can't remember my question, so how am I ever going to get my answer? I will never find it, and that's how I feel. I'm reading and searching, but I don't know what I'm searching for... If all I have to live for is these earthly things, then what's the point if I see all this corruption... I can imagine dying is like passing out, the moment you wake up you don't know anything, it's like your just existing without a mind. Then you snap back to reality, and I just hate it. I just don't know anything at all. What is the value of life? Don't say it varies from person to person, think of it as a question and forget your life when you answer it, forget everything you know, and answer it. What is the Value of life? Remember you can't think of your life or anything you know in your life. What is the value of life?