anyone start feeling worse when things get objectively better? It appears that I might have two job offers. One is waiting on some paperwork before becoming an actual offer and the other is an offer already. Objectively this is indicia of hope. So I should be feeling better. But I feel worse. All I can see is the myriad of things that could go wrong. And I feel paralyzed and unable to choose between the two options. I feel like everything is just going to blow up in my face and I cant take it. I feel more suicidal now than I was before. My counselor even suggested going to the hospital, which I definitely do not want to do.