Okay, so I've been battling to stay positive about life and work and all the drudge involved in just living. We get up in the morning, go to work, get home, sleep, get up, go to work...and then weekends we see friends or family and even that feels like routine. I had one hope left, one BIG dream. Since I had my first period I wanted a baby. We have been trying for 8 years now and no dr could tell me why it wasn't happening. We finally saved up to see a specialist and his report was damning. It basically said that, as a woman I am not functioning. I will have to have an operation and because of many factors we will have to do IVF...I've heard of so much pain and disappointment. It also costs a bucket load of money. And you never do just one. I'm shattered. To be honest I'm not even thinking of dying. I'm just not thinking. I'm numb. When I go to work I overreact to everything drive like a maniac to just get home, get in my pajamas and just not see anybody, or speak, or laugh or cry or anything. Just leave me alone. Guys, I think I'm steering head-on for a big depression and I can't lose my job now. PLEASE, does anybody have advice (besides seeing my dr. made an appointment, but can only see her in two weeks). What do I do now, for today, to get through this and not destroy my marriage, my job, my life.