I see no other way out of this than to kill myself. Either I have schizophrenia to the highest degree or there really are surveillance cameras in my house. In my old house I believed that there were people up in the attic, the constant thumping noise coming from above made me extra paranoid but my mom said it was nothing. There are surveillance cameras, I just know it. I am beyond the realm of sanity at this point I can't describe this feeling of complete and utter destruction of privacy, I think someone secretly placed a gps tracker in my mom's car and people most probably have gone into our apartment when we were not there and god knows what they did there and I think my phone is tapped and my computer is being messed with also the privacy service is crap and shit I am dieing here I am dieing I'm going to the point where I am afraid to be around people because I wonder if they are mind readers or something of that sort and God please why did you have to come into my life when all I wanted and all I needed was peace you don't seem to understand that I can't stand having eyes on me like this I would be happy if I go back to being insignificant you are killing me, you're killing me dammit can you hear me? YOU ARE KILLING ME. You're making my insanity worse by the minute and I am afraid to do anything these days I these days I can't go out and I can't stay in I don't know where to go because everywhere I go you're there inside or out you're there and it's killing me it's driving me insane is that what you truly want? Would you be happier if I just killed myself? Why are you doing this? Why? When is this all going to end? Are you even human? What am I, a zoo animal? Do you believe in this thing called privacy? Has it never even occured to you that all this is driving me insane? This is torture, there is no other explanation for this. I can't live like this. I really can't live like this. This is hell, this isn't life this is hell. You have driven my paranoia over the edge and my schizoprenia to a degree of helplessness and is this what you really want? To see someone my age go crazy like this and kill herself? I bet you don't even feel guilt or remorse, because a person like you, a person who would forcefully take away another person's privacy, is not even human. You are not human. You can't be human. No human being does this to another person. Especially to a person who is already mentally disturbed. I am just speechless. God I just need my privacy, I need for you to get out my life completely so that my paranoia and schizopreniia will end. Please.