Have you ever wondered if you were insane? Not just "omg you jumped off a building with a parachute, ur insane!!" way, but actually truly insane? that you will end up like friggin Bobby Fischer, or just snap mentally and hurt somebody? i keep feeling this massive thing inside me. it just keeps welling up and getting more and more unbearable. i've often thought about hurting people, and i often dream of getting into a fight with somebody because i somehow believe that by doing so i will relieve some of the pressure i feel in my head. i don't see how it will. i need a release of some form, from the guilt, the hate, the madness. i don't believe i'm a bad person, i just don't know what the fuck to do at times. gah...goddamnit. just want to smash something.