I have always known that I wasn't straight. When all the other girls were talking about their boyfriend's or discussing boys I was fighting my feelings towards them. I used to be quite scared of the thought of being gay and would even cry. I planned to ignore my feelings and marry a boy and be happy because that how it should be, right? A few months ago after seeing how people had become more accepting and realising maybe it wasn't so bad I told my close friends I wasn't straight. I then faced the next problem if I wasn't straight what was I ? I didn't and still don't feel comfortable with labelling myself a lesbian, transsexual, bisexual or anything really. This confused a lot of people because here I was saying I'm gay but I'm not ? It wasn't that I didn't know what I was am it's that I don't want to be labelled. If I want to be treated the same as anyone else why would I go out of my way to label myself something different ? I didn't feel the need to label my love for another person. I wanted people to accept that the person I loved just so happened to be the same gender as me. This seemed to bother a lot of people and I wasn't accepted in the lgbt community as I was just "attention seeking" So after not being accepted I became unsure of myself again. I'm back to feeling insecure about myself.