im so sick of this I've been insecure about my weight all my life. im fourteen years old and a size 12 in pants. today i tried on my dress for graduation and it didn't even fit. not that i could wear it anyways with all of my cuts and scars showing. im sick of being fat and ugly. i wish i was thin. I've tried to wretch but I've just gripped the toilet bowl and cried, nothings come out. I've tried to starve but in the end hunger gives in. Im on two lacrosse teams and i just don't now what I'm doing wrong. kids at school used to call me the whale i can't fit into any of my clothes. I'm disgusting not to mention all of my acne bubbling up on my face or my not so fantastic burnt to death hair. for once i was to look in the mirror and be proud of what i see. maybe that would make me happy. maybe.