I've been having a hard time this past week. I started a new job two weeks ago. It's a good job, but ever since I started, I've thought more and more about suicide. I don't know why. A job is a good thing- I'm making money and getting out of the house and doing something to move out of the rut I'm in. But the wish to be dead has come back with a vengeance. I just want to beg someone to get a gun and shoot me. My life is getting better but my will to live is getting weaker every day. It doesn't make sense. Please, just make the feelings stop.