Haven't been able to sleep without help in years. I usually take my Ambien but unfortunately I've built up a tolerance so I run out the bottle pretty quickly. I asked my doctor to give me a higher dose since I built up a tolerance which makes sense so I expected her to understand the obvious. But instead she said she legally can't. I didn't know what to do because I need to sleep. So I started eating all the store night drugs you can think of...which is where it becomes a problem. Not for me but for....him..once anything becomes inconvenient to him is where he makes sure to shine his brightest. "Why can't you sleep, just close your fucking eyes". But baby you've known for years I've got insomnia to the fullest, you think i wanna just not sleep..."Ugh your so annoying. Whatever I hate you"...thanks babe..so now with no pills of any sort , its 3 in the morning and all i can think of is.... how happy I am in my head looking down from a cliff. I always picture myself smiling over a cliff just dangling my feet over a few thousand feet. Freedom when I look down is what I see.