I want to commit slow suicide through <mod edit- method>. For 10 years I've struggled with an eating disorder, it dominates my thoughts - my life - leaving absolutely no room for anything else. Sadly, this is all I got... being underweight, anorexia is like my security blanket; a safety net. Always, I stand at the edge of an emotional-downward-spiral into self-destruction or death. My life is meaningless and worthless. I hate my life! I keep crying: "No more, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die", and that's all: I want to kill myself now.