I want to go to a medical intensive care unit after an OD of phenobarbital. Ah, I want this so badly. I want to sit in a bath and slice away at my skin until all the badness has gone. I want this so badly. I've been thinking about doing a deep cut and pouring nail varnish remover into the wound to make it even more painful. I desperately want to harm myself by cutting, burning, breaking bones. This isn't a ''oh you're posting about it so you must want help''. I do it regardless, I just need to let it out, you know? I watch every hospital programme on tv and dream about being on a life support machine. Also, could I have this account deleted? I don't deserve help or support. I'm just a fucking schizo.