hiya folks, new here i am so sick of this. nothing works. i am on morphine now, every pain med has side effects. i dont have AIDS, they dont know what I have i test for a lot of things but nothign that would cause this much pain. i am sick too, fevers, infections. if assisted suicide were legal here, i dont know if i would be here now. but i would be getting better medical care. doctors SUCK. few of them understand. my pain dr is cool, he has pain too but most of them are assholes. i would never leave my family without the life insurance. i go to a lyme disease specialist in aug, but dont know if he can help me. I have no friends left, no one wants to be around a sick person. my family is fed up. I am losing hope.