I am bipolar and get suicidal from time to time. I know that usually, sleeping it off works usually. But, I am excruciatingly lonely, despite putting on a smile, and trying to socialize more. I've been going dancing lately, and it helps a little. Also, I have a close friend that I am trying to avoid developing romantic feelings for. She is significantly younger and comes from a rather conservative family. She, like me, has had suicidal ideation. She is also planning to moves soon. I'll miss her immensely, but feel like she will be happier where she's going. I am not sure what to do. I am not suicidal right now, but have been and have thought out in detail my plan for ending it all. All it takes for me to become suicidal now is believing that I will die alone. Then I think "may as well be now." Usually, I stop myself for my parents and students sake. Then I just go to sleep.